flood

so many thoughts, emotions. don't chalk it up to pregnancy. i don't use that as an excuse, that is not why it is here. ask anyone around me, i'm like this normally. so, this is no different.

my mind wanders tonight. it wonders, too, but is mostly wandering. i got off work the exact time that i was scheduled to clock out, it was glorious... i chose to go home in order to write. also glorious. and when i got home... i had nothing to write.

so... i begin anyway.

i'm really trying hard to be positive again. i have found that the key to doing so is simply replacement. i replace my negative thoughts with affirmations, scripture, etc. it helps to keep me focused. i never ever used to be this way, but things get you going, you know? they really do.

and then... it is out of control the way your mind goes.

so, to catch you up on the way things go (speaking of going, right?)... biscuit had her first baseball game. her coach, the mister, couldn't have been more excited to sport the orange shirts and ball caps (his favorite color). and speaking of cap (and other three letter consonant, vowel, consonant words) biscuit is also reading now... quite fascinating. she discovered this ability on thursday. i witnessed her "aha" moment along with my mom and another woman with whom we play games at the library.

i spray painted the back of my car where it was damaged when it rolled down our driveway, against the house, and rested upon a tree (think Big Fish, but not that high). the mister complimented me on this endeavor. this was huge because... well, he technically (no pun intended) has a degree in such a thing... and i splurged for the $2.97 spray paint can!

i'm really missing cameras. mine especially. i'm not a fan, in the least, of my husbands. so pictures are rarely, if ever, updated. this makes me a little sad as i sort of became a bit of a photo-documentor-slash-journalist-if-you-will for a while...

i realize that this isn't the most creative or eloquent of posts... but... at least i'm writing something (when i should be sleeping).

this weekend we head back to what is home for me, birthplace, at least. but it is where the extended family resides. we have so many things planned, mainly people to see, but i'm more excited about it than i have been about anything of late... there will be a family photo of the five great grandbabies (as of now), indulging at the spaghetti factory with my favorite little men and their wonderful momma, a trip to the country's best children's museum (although we are no experts), a visit with biscuit's great-great-great aunt (my great-grandma's sister), an 80th birthday party for grandpa, an appearance at the homes of both of my grandma's, as well as, perhaps... homage to my late and great grandpa for his birthday (mom and i went to bob evan's today to have a "half order of biscuits and gravy" just like he always got... only, i had to get the gravy without sausage and i don't think that they offered a half order), not to mention a rather important parade and race!

i'd promise pictures but we know that won't happen (unless you really really want to see pictures, in which case you'll surprise me with a device to produce such anomalies!).

good night